*This book is all written in Japanese.

An autobiography of Sebastian Masuda, who now is a leader in spreading Kawaii culture all over the world. An essay of his youth before his success, following how he found a light of hope from the bottom of the world.

His mother, who was a figure that never even cooked and had no interests in raising children. His father secretly submitted divorce papers and had a shotgun wedding with his mistress. His younger sister was always emotionally unstable. With this complex family dynamic, his mind was a mess. But it suddenly changed since he knew about Shuji Terayama who was an Japanese avant-garde poet, dramatist, writer, film director, and photographer.

He started to throw himself into the theater arts industry, and opened a small shop in Harajuku with setting “express himself” as a goal - without knowing it was the first step of his journey to impact the world.